Okay, so it has been a few hours since I created this blog and put the "first" post up. Now that I have a bulk of my work for the day finished, I wanted to come back and elaborate a little more (mostly for myself). One of the requirements for Field Ed at Trinity is that we have to come up with a list of goals. Goals for both personal growth and ministry growth. In thinking about this, I realized that one of my biggest personal goals is to learn to be a more physically compassionate person. I know that I am very compassionate - my heart goes out to people in pain, tough situations and the like, but I have a hard time showing my compassion. I feel like whenever I do tears start to roll and I can't think straight. I want to learn how to express my compassion in such a way that I am not left in tears with no words to say. Tears are okay, but words also need to come. (Gee, as I'm writing this tears are already coming to my eyes.)
I've noticed over the years that I have a difficult time expressing my feelings to people and I think it is because my parents are not expressive people. They are two completely private people who let very, very few people into their inner world. And I've learned to be this way as well. Don't get me wrong, there are things about me that probably should stay private, and they will, but there is also the sense that I can't grow, spiritually, emotionally, intellectually unless I invite people in. It just so happens that this is a very difficult thing for me to do.
CM asked me this week to define "compassion". I will work on that definition this weekend and get back to you.
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