One of the things that I would like to learn | practice | try with this field ed is how to take a few more risks - emotionally. This is where I feel most uncomfortable - probably because I cry a lot and am usually uncomfortable (and embarrassed) with my tears. I guess I view them as a weakness - partly because I feel a strong ineptitude with expressing myself clearly when tears are present. Also, I have a really bad memory of breaking down at work and my so-called "team" seeing the tears as a weakness. Anyway, that is for another story.
My story today, however, is about risk taking. I received an email this week from one of the members of my small group letting me know that on Sunday she witnessed another member of our small group break down. Out of concern, I was emailed to let me know that hard times are being experienced by members of my group. So, in order to be responsive, I've decided to take a break from study and have an evening of prayer, fellowship and worship. I'm really uncomfortable facing other people's pain, but am hoping that within the context of fellowship and worship, I'll be able to work through this. We're meeting tonight, so please pray for me. I'll give an update tomorrow on how everything went.
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